Sex & the City Reruns Make me Feel Old

Recently E!, or rather for the past several years, has been playing Sex & the City reruns in the afternoons. I work from home so I frequently turn it to E! for background noise, but recently, I have started being drawn in to the episodes. It captivates me because I first watched the episodes at 21 years old and thought "those ladies are old" & "I'll never have to deal with this." I thought that, because at 21, I could captivate my 21 year old boyfriend to watch 6 seasons with me back-to-back and he didnt bat an eye....at 32....1 episode on TV sends they guy that is present in the room with me while watching it running. My 21 year old self watching the episodes thought the girls were in their 40's. Old and struggling for love. I was 21. I had my love. Or so I thought. My 32 year old self watches the episodes and cringes thinking the girls were in their 40s because I now realize they were my age or younger for the most part. Then I look back and think that my 21 year old self believed that if only those women found love, then they would be happy. That is what the show makes you think. And like I said I thought I had it. But now watching it at 32 years old, I see that these women look pathetic. And I hate it because it is a reflection of society, society believes that women need men to be happy. That just isn't true. I am 32 years old, and yes, I do wish I had a constant companion, a soulmate, but I find myself happiest when I am free. Free - to do my own thing, hang out with who I want. Free - to have only those people in my life who respect what I say when I say it the first time. Free - to be me.