This Year Will Be Better Than the Last

Dont we always hope the next year will be better than the last???? Well if anyone is keeping score...these first 2 months of 2008 for me have been much worse than the whole of 2007. Things better turn around soon.

I Won't Tell Them Your Name

So I was at a bar tonight. A hometown bar and randomly...some dude comes up to me and says...so what year did you graduate from _______ High School? I was shocked...I looked down to see if I was wearing anything that would have given me away. I saw nothing. I just pissed me off. That was over 10 years ago...apparently we or maybe just I am living in a world where high school mattered? Its sad to me how I wasnt prepared going into the "real world" how much I would still encounter high school. And how it still finds you no matter how far away you go or how much you try to seperate yourself from it. Life is just a longer version of high school I realized. Tonight is not the first night...but tonight is just the first night I decided to vocalize my feelings about it. I am sick of walking into places and situations where people think I must be that same girl from back then. Hello people!!! I have grown and matured into a woman. A woman with much different ideas about people and things that I had in high school. I find it very unfair to still, at my age, to be judged with high school eyes. Is it me or is it them? Have I grown and they havent or the other way around? Of course I think I have grown and they havent....that's why they are the ones to bring it up. I feel stuck in a time capsule in this town. I really need to catch the next train out. Hope this doesnt sound too cliche...but I have outgrown this town.

Old Music Always Brings You Home

So today...I read two books. They were nostalgic. Made me wanna take a road trip home. Seeing as that wasnt possible...I did the next best thing. I revisited the music that makes me feel like HOME. I spent the day listening to Matchbox 20, The Goo Goo Dolls, Counting Crows, Live, Incubus, Soundgarden, and Our Lady Peace. An ecclectic collection I will admit...but those bands embody the generation I grew up in. They speak to me. I loved it...in fact it was probably better than going home. The only thing better would have been going home playing those songs on the way.

Matty to be a DAD :(

My hopes and dreams of one day meeting Matthew are over. Now that he has a child coming into the world, this man will finally settle down. Even Peter Pan had to grow up. Some of the charm and mysterious sexiness that I love about this man just faded away. Its like a piece of what makes him him is dying. I am not thrilled that he is expecting :(

A quote from him,
McConaughey wrote, "My girlfriend Camila and I made a baby together ... it's 3 months growin in her womb and all looks healthy and lively so far." And we love this.... "We are stoked and wowed by this miracle."

Brad Renfro Dead at 25

I cannot believe it....this poor soul is only a few weeks older than me. As a kid, when "The Client" came out. I was absolutely in love with this boy. I always did like the bad boys...even at 10. Though Brad Renfro's character wasnt a bad boy in "the Client", he had the look and brooding eyes of a bad boy.

Looks like hid death was due to drugs and alcohol, though official reports won't come out for weeks.

Keep Brad's family and friends in your thoughts and prayers.