12 steps

Jimmy being the 9th song on Tool's album Enima makes the listener believe the "character" has reached the 11th step. When only, he is taking care reminicsing on the time of going through step 9...which is making amends with those hurt by your actions. The mathematics of it can lead one to assume that when a person reaches step 9 in their recovery that they believe they have skipped ahead to step 11 which means they have reached spiritual enlightenment. However, the person at step 9assumes they will be forgiven, but when they are not have to go through a period of personal self evaluation. Simply admiting denial, etc...is not enough.

Songs 9-12 on Emina chronicle the difficulties in the admitting the difficulties that the person struggling has inflicted on the people around them. It is definately a rough section of music to listen to. It tells a the story of dysfunctional relationships coming to a vortex.

Song number 13 shows that through all of the hard work and committment to keeping the relationships afloat and healthy...that it is not worth it. Hence, the bullshit three ring circus. It is at this point both parties realize they are toxic to each other. This is a critical turning point.

Songs 14 and 15 represent the struggle of a person falling off the wagon. Namely a person remaining in toxic relationships. Namely, Third Eye represents one party of the relationship reaching a state of meditation and tranquility with life.

Bringing it back to 46 and 2... in order for 2 people to meet in the middle...there must be shades of grey. I believe the 46 and 2 represent the 2 halves and the 46 degrees in which they can variate from each other on the level 180 degree plane of life. Basically 2 people will only get along if they can meet and the middle and compromise which means the 2 degree variation built in on either side of the 90 degree mark.

Hope my ramblings make sense to someone.

46 and 2

is this about a chromosomal level? the missing link?

let's not get too scientific....
let's not think about this on a chromosomal level. i think people interpret this too deeply.

its basically saying. i want to change myself.

my interpretation is that it is saying i dont want to completely change myself...i just need to go a little bit more than 90 degrees to to a different side of my life.

not a complete 180 degrees, but live more in the centered section of my life.

if you looked at this they way I am right now...you would see a flat line drawn. That flat line would represent the line drawn through the middle of a cirle, which we all know is represented as the 180 degree line. So then draw a line right through the center...that's the 90 degree line...the fault line. The line you are supposed to walk. Even Johnny Cash said you have to walk the line. But the simple fact is...nobody can walk the exact 90 degree line.

So if you walk 46 and 2 then you are at least in the parameters of "the line". Basically I guess I am saying everyone is half good and evil. I feel like I should be committed for even thinking this, let alone writing a post about it...but I can draw you a post to show you what I mean. email me if you want to see my graph.

the moment of truth in your lies

yeah you bleed just to know your alive. how can people live lies? i just dont understand....i've lived lies and i have watched friends live lies. there is nothing real about it, nothing substanstial to gain from living a lie. because a lie is NOT real...its circumstated....look hahah I made up a new word. But living a lie means creating your own false universe. Arent we talk to look for things that equal positive? Maybe this is what Einstein meant by relativity and parallel universes. I am finding it completely believable that many people I know live more than one life than they show you. Maybe that means I am not advanced. Maybe that means that I am not as smart as them. God I sure hope not. Hello God, It's me Margaret....

i dont wanna go home right now

sooner or later its over. and i dont wanna go home right now. why dont more people want you to know who they are?

you painted up your secrets

lies they told you. the least they ever gave you was the most they ever gave you...

your voice is small and fading.

lies fade. the truth stays. people should try the truth. it lasts. lies fade. god why dont more people understand this.

people who know this are so honest...people can see right through them. the "people" are the liars. its just another bullshit three ring circus.

it doesnt matter if you tell them your name

Going old school tonight...Goo Goo Dolls...Name.

Loved the song and CD.

I realized while listening how true this song is. "The past is never far..."

It doesnt matter. New people can try to be nice and not say your name...but people figure it out anyway.

A name doesnt follow you. A name only follows you as a legacy after you die, hence people who need to call thier kids Jr, Sr, II, III, etc.

Or is the song saying to not make their name famous.

Or is the song saying dont use a name to get ahead in the world.

Or is the song saying "name" in place of a name like "Amy" or "Anna Lee" in the songs by Pure Prairie League and Hal Ketchum. Or "Melissa" by The Allman Brothers Band.

Who knows....this is why i love music. Our generations poetry. You can interpret it however you like.

Usually I tell you how I interpret it, but tonight I can't do that...think for yourself.